Hilarious Giving

I stumbled across some naïve thoughts on selflessess from freshman year (2003, unedited for the sake of honesty — there are plenty of ideological mistakes):

...The desire of a selfish relationship is understood, but what of a selfless one? What reason is there to that desire? Perhaps it is only to act on your emotion, and to trust your desire to give. Should we give? Is giving good? The Bible says so, but what sense does it make? To give is to stop focusing inward and focus outward. To do this effectively, we must acknowledge that the subjective mind of others is more important than the subjective mind of the self. An equal good for a greater amount of people? The Lord loves a cheerful giver. Perhaps it isn't the giving that matters, but the cheer. God doesn't love giving, but the mind behind it, the attitude. It is good to follow the desire to give, because it brings forth (propagates) an attitude of cheerfulness...

(This is an excerpt, but there was no "prologue"; i.e.: I didn't put on a "Christian hat" at the beginning — I was just assuming) I find it interesting that the word used in that verse I was thinking of, "God loves a cheerful giver." (Corinthians 9:7) is only used once in the NT: hilaros.